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P. Sherman 42 Wallaby Way, Sydney
Anonymous

What, is the next Panic challenge to find Nemo?

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Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming…

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thetylerfontana:

Trust me. I know how big of a mistake it was. Had to watch you break before my eyes. Never realized how bad it got because I was so use to it. To be honest, I think I’d rather prefer that you yell at me. We make mistakes to learn from them, if we don’t learn from them and continue to to do them, they are no longer mistakes and instead decisions.

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I really am sorry.

Maybe I’ll yell at you later. I won’t be so surprised to see you then. I guess… apology accepted. I appreciate your sincerity.

I need to know though… are you still using? I don’t even know if I want to be around you after this but I can’t be around drugs… It’s not a risk I’m willing to take, not anymore.

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thetylerfontana:

Tessa, I - I made a mistake. Isn’t every human being in the world allowed to make a mistake? Aren’t we all allowed to make mistakes and learn from them? Don’t you get that I’ve learned from the mistake I’ve made. I know what I did. You don’t understand how deeply I regret what I did to you. How much I wish I could go back in time and… And never even meet you? I care about you, Tessa. I always will. Even if it seemed like I never did. You’ll never been a weight on my shoulders. I accept you for who you were and who you are, I’ve taken it all in and I will carry it with me until you decide you no longer want me to.

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That was one hell of a mistake, Tyler. God, I wish I still hated you. A year ago I would have yelled and screamed at you, but now… {she shrugged limply} I couldn’t hold onto my anger, it made me feel horrible. I’m glad you learned from it, I really am.

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early morning || tirby

kirbydelevingne:

He had to keep Keegan’s words fresh in his mind. Tessa had to do this, if not for her sisters, for herself. It would be a big step for the gorgeous blonde, the thought that she could overcome her fears and make her family proud of her must have resonated strongly since she decided to go ahead with this. He had to continue to support her and encourage her, no matter how hard or frustrating he found it.

He held her close, as she did him. Those beautiful blue eyes staring back at his. He kissed her back, soft and lingering, her lips cushioning against his. He shook his head with a smile. “You make it really hard for me to be.” He looked at the girl again and pulled her in for a warm hug. “Don’t let the fear get to you, go into the next challenge with the mindset that I support you and that I’ll be rooting for you. You can do this, okay?”

Relieved, she held him tight, breathing laughter into his shoulder, “I was so scared. I thought I was going to lose you.” It seemed ridiculous now, that he might leave her for participating in Panic, but just as she’d done in the darkness she’d convinced herself of an outcome before it had even happened. Nodding as best she could while being hugged, she raked her fingers through his hair, “I’ll be expecting it now. They caught me off guard the first time, but I won’t let it happen again. I really want to win.”

Touching another kiss to his cheek, she leaned back, her arms still around his neck and a bigger smile on her face, “This is probably a dumb idea… but would it make you feel better if maybe I like, went to the gym with you or something? If the challenges are physical I’m not exactly the most capable so… I’ll do whatever I have to to put your mind at ease.”

(Source: tessa-lisbon)

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early morning || tirby

kirbydelevingne:

The feeling she described had been so familiar to Kirby, not in the literal sense, that’s for sure. But he’d known how horrible of a muscle the brain could be, when you were so uncertain of something that it drove you to several other insane conclusions. He knew the feeling of needing that escape and where he used to find it through his bursts of anger he now found that escape in Tessa and only hoped that she could find it in him. He wanted to be her outlet.

"The fear that creeps in the back of our mind, triggers at the smallest ounce of uncertainty; it’s toxic, Tess. And I can’t save you from that, but I can be there when uncertainty strike, I promise to be there." He ran his hand up and down her back as she curled into him. He was mostly angry at himself, he could’ve done Panic with her, done it in order to protect her. He could have been in that haunted house by her side, holding her hand and giving her the escape she needed. But he wasn’t, he couldn’t. "I’m not guilty, I’m just frustrated that I couldn’t help you through it." He cleared his throat. "I love you so much."

He was right, subjecting herself to the challenges brought on that toxic fear, but if she couldn’t face it she’d never let herself live it down. She couldn’t spend the rest of her life wondering what if. If she couldn’t win, then so be it, but she was damn well going to try. She couldn’t be the person her sisters needed her to be, but maybe the money would make them realise that she would do anything for them.

Letting out a slow, shuddered breath, Tessa swallowed her tears. She wanted to be strong, to show Kirby that she might have been down, but not out. Finding out that he was frustrated, she looked up at him, holding her hand on his cheek to keep their eyes locked, “You did help me through it even if you weren’t there. I love you too.” Giving him a small, but genuine smile, she kissed him softly, “Are you still frustrated?”

(Source: tessa-lisbon)

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